i never believe them when they tell me i'm beautiful. so why do i believe you..

You deserve more.

You deserve someone who loves you with every single beat of his heart, someone who thinks about you constantly, someone who spends every minute of every day just wondering what you're doing, where you are, who you're with and if you're okay.

You need someone who can help you reach your dreams and still protect you from your fears.

You need someone who will treat you with respect and love every part of you, especially your flaws.

You should be with someone who can make you happy, really happy, dancing-on-air happy.

So isabel t** h** x***, i can be that someone. If you just give me a chance. :)

sometimes the nicest things u say to someone are those you didnt have to think through. that also goes for the meanest.

i think.. the sweetest thing that has ever been said to or about me, was heard that day when we were playing a game and didi just said:

'i wanna make isabel smile'.

those words went straight from my senses right into my heart .><.

you.

i miss how you said 'it will be okay', when darkness was all i saw.

i miss your laugher that echoed through the room and made even the saddest smile.

i miss the feel of my hairband being pulled off, every morning when you greeted from behind.

i miss the way you let me win, even when you knew you'd lose more than just the game.

i miss how your whisper 'you okay?' always made me want to cry.

i miss how you tried and tried to make me smile, no matter how long it took.

i miss the times we'd stand alone at the end of the corridor, looking to the sky, watching birds fly and wind blow, not needing to say a word.

but most of all, i miss...

lost and found

Sometimes, people can go missing right before your very eyes. Sometimes, people discover you, even though they've been looking at you the whole time. Sometimes, you lose sight of yourself when you're not paying enough attention.

We all get lost once in a while. Sometimes by choice, sometimes due to forces beyond our control. After we learn what our soul is meant to learn, the path presents itself. Sometimes we see the way out but wander further and deeper despite ourselves. The fear, the sadness, preventing us from returning. Sometimes we prefer to be lost and wandering, sometimes it's easier.

Sometimes we find our own way out. But sometimes we need the help of loved ones; or even strangers.

Regardless, we are always found.

2 people

today, i figured out that different peoples' lives, no matter how alike they are, can be really really different.

i look around.

this guy's having the time of his life enjoying the happiness of just living. like he says: "there's no point being intelligent when you enjoy life too much."
while that guy, right at the other side of the room is beaten and down and just plain broken. his feeling: "brain and brawn are useless when the heart is broken."

both so true. both so different from the other.

thinking back, i remember how this now happy guy used to be so down. feeling unaccepted, unloved and left out. yet now, how things can change.

looking at 2 people from total opposites, i just feel happy to be content. not very happy but not too sad either. i'd rather be a little richer, i have to admit. haha.. but still, i think a lesson is learnt from them.

sometimes, life is just plain mean. it can throw anything at you and wait for you to fall.
sometimes, it's so unbearable that many do fall. but
sometimes, you just gotta trust God and move forward even when your whole heart and soul just wants to let it all go and give up.
sometimes, you just can't give up.

because in the end, you know way deep deep down in your heart, it will all be alright.

quote of the day

a wise girl once said : "Guys that don't appreciate you is not worth your time. If they walk out on you, Just turn your back and continue your journey towards a better life. Never look back to shed a single tear for those jerks."

TO: JOYCE

so sad cant go for ur surprise party T.T did u get surprised kaokao? XD
anyway....

SURPRISE!!!

HAPPIIE BIRTHDAY JOYCE MAH TEDDIE~~~~~!!! I'LL ALWAYS LOVE YA LOTS!!!! :3

LOVES, BEL ^^

FORM4

hey... umm.. i think i forgot how to write here dy.. hehe.

uhh.. well.. form4 been super busy. i cant tahan the accounts teacher. SO BORING MAN the way she talks. -.- never changes her tone. NEVER. except when she scolds ppl. arghss..

too. many. homework. yesterday sivik teacher asked us to to a 'jadual waktu'. so i just write my normal jadual lor. and i just realised... MY LIFE IS SO BORING!!!!! just school, homework, practice piano, guitar, revision, tuition, sleep. repeating again and again and again and again. omg. i'm dying. ughhhh....

ma yah... i miss my old friends..... like my 'jie fu' said : " we already have our friends and gang. even though we're apart (is different classes), now want us to accept new friends is really really hard. my door is closed. "

sigh.
peace out.

thank you!!

hey guys! i'll make this short n sweet cuz i got LOADS of homework waiting to be touched.

My aawwesome parents got me a new handphone for my 'awwesome' results! XD

so thank you!!!! ^^

oh and i found this heart shaped YAW CHAR GUAI while i was eating porridge at home! XD

cry

FORM 4 SUCKS RIGHT NOW. SOB...! ....>.<....

Christmas partie!

on 25th decenber.. aka Christmas day.. we had a christmas-birthday party with my aunt's family and my kai ma n her hubby. ^^





glorious glorious food~~




birthday cake~




mah presents! XD mostly from mah loverly church youths and cousins.. actually all from them. haha..
thanks to johnny and josean

thanks to joyce, xin n peiyee

thanks to laiyee, ker yong, samantha, kevin n psc

thanks to elene, laiyee, pope, crystal n lydia

thanks to the choong bros, xin wei, jessie n crystal

thanks to aunty loo, sarah, kelvin n kai ma

thanks to jia wern n zhi yee

loves to all~!! ^^ muackxes!

winter solstice...

winter solstice was on 22nd december. so me and mah family had our annual 'tang yuan' making night on 21st.

looky at that pics >>

i'm missing cuz i'm ze photographer. haha

PMR results~

ahh.. life's not that bad afterall...

got my pmr results today. went to skul with dad at 11am eventhough it's supposed to be at 10am cuz my friends told me they weren't ready. hahas..

the head said a few words, read out the statistics, a datuk said a few words, and they announced the names and gave out flowers to all the straight A students 1 by 1. all that made me pretty impatient. lolz..

so anyway, after all that, we went to the table n my dad squeezed through the ppl to take my results while i waited out of the crowd. apparently he was more impatient than me. haha. we managed to be 1 of the first ppl to get the result slip.
when i read it, my heart almost popped! i got...*xixixi*...7As.. ^^ and 1C for chinese. hahaha... nevertheless, i was jumping around for joy xD

yayayayay~ so, very happie now~

wanna thank u guys...

THANK YOU FAMILY, FOR ALL THE PRAYERS AND GUIDANCE.
THANK YOU FRIENDS, FOR ALL THE PRAYERS AND ENCOURAGEMENT.
THANK YOU CHURCH YOUTH & MEMBERS FOR ALL THE PRAYERS.

lastly,

THANK YOU GOD FOR LISTENING AND ANSWERING ALL OUR PRAYERS. XD

yeah, so that's it people. time to focus on form4. aiks.
peace out dudes!

pure happiness

19th december~

happie birthdae to mee~ happie birthdae to mee~ happie biiirthdaeee to mee-ee~ happie birthdae to meee~!! xD

i know most of u might nvr get to see my house...so take a look at my beoootifulley decorated house! ^^ haha...

please christmas dont be late~~~

beootiful tree >

beootiful house

(my doggie at the window! xD) >

christmas + new year decor! >

~the end~ ^^

the sweeter the memory, the more the hurt..

in penang queensbay mall~ baskin robins~

aiyo darn small cuz all taken by phone..