hey peoples.remember me? please say yes! if u dont, dun bother reading this la..u dunno me anyway... -.-
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xD just kidding la!! i know u sure remmber me wan right? =P
trials jus ended today and i'm so happie~ ^^
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so anyway, to the main point of this post.these few days (weeks rather) have been so busy.but it got me thinking too..
what would life be without friends? true ones especially.friends u can always count on and share your ups and downs with.without 'em, i think i might be dead now (choi choi choi! haha.).but seriously, i'd want to die.
imagine going to school or church or anywhere else and have noone to say 'hi' to and talk abt how the weekend was, or wat interesting things we did yesterday, or places we went to.imagine going to the theater and laughing/crying at a show on your own.imagine having noone to share your problems with! (i know.there's still family.but sometimes they just dun understand, u know?)
look at all the possiblities...i'm horrified just thinking about it.
in my life, i've had many happy times, many fun times, many crazy times, many so-silly-happie-feel-like-i'm-walking-on-air times.but of course many many sad, hard times.
i'm sad to say, i never quite knew how to share my probs and stuff with my parents, eventhough they have always (almost always) been supportive, letting me know that i can always share things with them.sorry =[ so i turned to friends.lovely lovely friends.
now, i wanna thank all you guys who've been helping me or just 'been here with me' through all these times.even if now we dun talk anymore cuz of any reasons (not counting me not wanting to to talk to u, which is definitely not a reason), i really truly appreciate you guys for being here even just a short peroid of time.and i mean this with all my heart.
my girlfriends >
to crystal, who always has smiles to give and laughter to share.
to anna, who is always first in line to share her problems and hear mine.
to laiyee, who brightens days with her crazy ways.
to joyce, who can always be counted on.
to lydia, who is a silent care-r.
to debbie and cathy, who will forever be a wonderful part of the ACIDs.
my boy (space)
to johnny, who will always be my first and bestest kor.
to rueben, who has been here and will always be here for me (but can still disappear anytime xD). (dun 想歪.seriously.dont.i mean it.)
to reuben, who eventho isnt always 'there', is a good kor and counselor all the same.
to stan, who lighted up my life that awesome period of time.
to david, who was and is a good and funny friend to cheer ppl up.
thank you for the memories that you have given me and are going to give me.each and every one of you.a beautiful memory of stars in my very own sky.
chicken chop with mashed potatoes and salad.deeeelicious!
group photo~~ =]
eating our dinner..hehe
me and my favourite birthday boys~
sis: 'hey!! that's the last of it leh!! >(' haha..
arent they handsome? haha...
donuts for dessert!!! yummm~
homebaked cake witha spinkles! xD
Ciel (absolutely fascinating if enlarged)
Zero
Unit Alpha 1
Angelina Jolie
okay.in a real big hurry here.just wanna have a lil update about last sunday...
so..had breakfast at mcD (been a long time since i had mcd) with my family before goin to church.had a great service, then guitar class.guitar class was..abnormal yet normal.meaning, awkward.
aft church, went to sunway pyramid with sarah, brian, jian hui, johnston and crys.went to buy movie tickets to the new harry potter show when suddenly the pope called to say my bro was missing from guitar class.called up my mom n found out that bro went home dy. -.-'
anyway, aft buying the tickets went over to Popeye's to eat lunch (eventho i alrd thot we had lunch in the car with all the burgers and fries n drinks..but i guess not. *shrugs*) met the Ha family and michelle while eating..
later me n crys went into the cinema first aft buying popcorn n stuff.then the others came.with johnnykor too (he came from home.lolx.).
there was some prob with the show.at the beginning, it took really long to start.then when the movie trailers and advertisments started, it suddenly stopped and the lights came on.then aft a while it started again.this happened a few times.by the third time, everyone was grumbling dy.
johnnykor beside me even said that the first time he came here (this's only the 2nd time), the show had a prob n they had to refund them! O.O i was getting mad.finally, the real show started.it stopped again for just a minute, then continued to the end.thank god.
the show was quite ok....not as bad as i expected.lolzzz.it took from 330-630 all cuz of those malfunctions. -.- me n crys were freezing there.not many action scenes..but there was 1 part at the lake when it was sooo quiet, a hand came out of the water n grabbed harry's hand! every1 jumped up! haha...exept for kor.who laughed. o.O haha.
but still, overall we had a good time.wouldnt mind going again.haha... ^^
that's all..see ya in a week or so.....gotta study more.which means blog less. T.T bye~
I've learned...
If you hold on to the past, you forget the present and lose the future.
I've learned...
It don't matter what people think about me.It matters what i think about myself.
I've learned...
Boys were never meant to understand girls and girls were never made to understand boys.
i've learned...
There will always be someone there to give me a shoulder when i cry, a hand when i fall and just..a smile.
I've learned...
I dont have to be sad if some people dislike me.I have a family, true friends and 'kors' alike who stand by me through it all.so what more could i want?
I've learned...
The worst reason for a girl to dislike me is 'because i like the guy she likes'.
(Come on, i believe that if a guy likes a girl, he will like her with or without me there.Anyway, to me, true girlfriends are better than a boyfriend any day)
I've learned...
To say sorry when i did something wrong and to not when i know i'm being wrongly accused.
I've learned...
If i like a guy who doesnt like me, its just because we're not meant to be.I have plenty of time to wait for the right one.
I've learned...
To laugh whenever i can, and cry only whenever i have to.
I've learned...
A place is only as great as i make it.so why not make it great?
The empty, desolate street.
The still, parked cars.
The beautiful trees swaying to the music of the earth.
Riding alone on my bicycle,
thousands of things are running through my mind.
Worries and troubles and depression.
Then suddenly,
nothing.
Feeling nothing,
but the warm evening sun shining on me,
the cool strong breeze blowing through my hair.
Listening to soothing music coming from a neighbour's house,
remembering bad memories that were locked in the basement of my mind.
Memories that haunted my every move.
Memories that kept me from trying.
I close my eyes and let the wind blow me away.
To a place full of magic and wonders,
where only happiness exists and sadness has never been heard of.
It's beautiful.Just beautiful.
A gust of wind comes.
It's blowing at a tree.
A tree covered with dead leaves.
Ugly dead leaves.
I know.It's my bad memories.
I feel it.
Like a heavy pressure on me.
Then all of them blow away with the wind.
Revealing a beautiful coat of new leaves underneath.
They will not haunt me again.
Not anymore.
I slowly open my eyes.
The breeze still blowing all around.
With tears in my eyes,
I take a deep breath.
This is definitely...
A moment to remember.
p.s. dear reader, please do NOT close your eyes and cycle like i did.i will NOT be held responsible for any accidents.thank you. xD
I have in my hands two boxes,
Which God gave me to hold.
He said, 'Put all your sorrows in the black box,
And all your joys in the gold.'
I heeded His words, and in the two boxes,
Both my joys and sorrows I stored,
But though the gold became heavier each day,
The black was as light as before.
With curiosity, I opened the black,
I wanted to find out why,
And I saw, in the base of the box, a hole,
Which my sorrows had fallen out by.
I showed the hole to God, and mused,
'I wonder where my sorrows could be!'
He smiled a gentle smile and said,
'My child, they're all here with me..'
I asked God, why He gave me the boxes,
Why the gold and the black with the hole?
'My child, the gold is for you to count your blessings,
The black is for you to let go.'
We should consider all of our friends a blessing.
Send this to a friend today just to let them know you
are thinking of them and that they are a joy in your life.
A ball is a circle, no beginning, no end.
It keeps us together like our Circle of Friends.
But the treasure inside for you to see,
Is the treasure of friendship you've granted to me.
23:23
the numbers i see almost every night.every night, before i sleep i will put my handphone on the floor if i'm going to sleep.unless i'm sms-ing with someone.
but no matter what happens, i will see those numbers.
let me explain. >>
lets say, i'm typing a msg.type type type..suddenly feel like just pressing the 'back' button.23:23.
or maybe, i'm half asleep.but suddenly wonder what time is it already.23:23.
how about, i'm chatting with someone.'how come still havent replied me?' look at the hp.23:23.
hmm.i'm sleeping.suddenly feel like wanna go to the loo.wat time already? look.23:23.
next,i'm watching tv.'when's this show gonna end? what time isit?' let me guess.23:23.
almost EVERY NIGHT this will happen.i dunno if this is a sign or something....maybe an answer to an exam question? a time when i have to do something in future?? i dunno.i just hope it aint something bad.but i'm not really caring....dumdeedum...
wat do u guys think? lolz.
kays.i've said what i came to say.I'LL BE BACK. xD tatas guys~!!
where am i? its so dark.is this nightime? trees are surrounding me at all sides.they're black and leafless.where am i??! i'm..lost.how did i get here???!
'help! is anyone here?? help me!! please...!!!'
~
i have to find the way out of here! all i can think of is running.i run and run and run.....
its so dark.its too silent to be a forest.all i can hear are my footsteps.
i dont see anything but the black trees.nothing.its so scary.i start to cry.but i keep running.'dont stop' i tell myself.i struggle through some branches.they scratch me all over.i dont care. 'run.just keep running.get out.' was all i could think.
finally,my legs could stand nomore.out of breath,i fall.
i open my eyes.was that a dream? no.i'm still here.
it should be morning by now.where's the sun? its still as dark as ever.i try to get up, but my legs wont budge.like they're paralyzed.i cant do it.
what's that? a bright light catches my eye.light! there's light! i starts to grow dim.
'no! dont go!!!' i push myself up.my legs wont move. 'get up!!!' i forced them up.they hurt.they feel more painful than anything i've ever felt before.tears start falling from my eyes.
run.run!! i cant.i can barely walk.the light moves.it goes further and further away.i feel the darkness coming over me. 'no,wait.wait for me..' RUN!! i start running.i dont care how much it hurts.i want to get out of here.the light is so far way it looks like a tiny star almost disappearing. i dont stop.'i wont.' i promise myself. 'i wont..'
after what seemed like days and days of endless running, i see the light.its not more than a mile away.i run like i've never ran before.
finally,i'm there.standing right in front of it.before i can say a word, its glows so bright till i cant open my eyes, and then vanishes. 'no!!!! COME BACK!!!!!!' i'm enveloped in darkness again.
its gone..gone.
i kneel down and start crying.i give up..i give up.
suddenly,something nudges my knee.i look up.its a mouse.tiny and harmless.then i notice, i'm not in the jungle anymore..i'm out! I'M OUT!!!
i breathe a sigh of relief...its over.
my energy is totally used up.i lay down and fall asleep.
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its morning now.a dim light shines in the sky.its not the sun.i'm on a gloomy,cold stretch of bare land.the forest has disappeared.
in front of me lay a huge jungle of rose plants.rose plants that were almost 4 feet tall.the roses were a shade of black-red.big thorns stuck out from all the branches.
i stand there.wide-eyed staring at them,speechless.
'its not over.' no...
i sit down on the cold hard floor.planning to just lie down and die.
then sudddenly, a strong wind blows in.i'm freezing cold.where is this coming from?? i cant open my eyes.it didnt take me long to figure out,its a hurricane.
i have nowhere to go.it was either the wind, or the thorns.
i try to hide in a narrow pathway in the branches.
thorns scratch my whole body.my clothes are torn by them.blood is streaming through my wounds.i noticed the path gets wider as it goes on.even so,the narrow part is very long.i know i would be hurt badly if i go on.
but there is no option now.i pull myself through the branches.pushing away as much as i can with my hands.i yell in pain as the thorns poke into my arms. 'keep going.you're almost there.keep going...'
the path starts getting wider.then,less and less thorns could reach me.finally,i'm walking in the middle of the rose jungle.my wounds hurt like crazy.i tear off a part of my sleave and soak it in a puddle of water.i use it to wipe my wounds and bandage my right arm.
the sun is still nowhere to be seen.i just keep walking.glancing around once in a while to see if any horrible creature comes jumping at me.
after some hours,i see the end.the end of the jungle.my energy is failing me and i feel like i'm going to die of exhaution......
but its not over.i'm in more darkness.its just a dark and empty space.i have no place to run.no way to go.i would just be walking on and on into nothingness if i continued.
not knowing what to do anymore,i fall to the ground.i sob and sob endlessly.but right then,i remembered.
pray.try to pray.
'God..help me.please..'
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i wake up to see myself in a field.green trees and flowers surrounding me.
i feel...safe again.i'm safe again.
today, i am walking into the future and letting go of the past.
enough hurting myself.enough crying.enough thinking everything will be fine if i just cared abit more.enough.
i've had enough.of everything.
it's time to put a fake smile on my face and get on with life.get on with everything i'm supposed to do.everything i'm required to.stop caring if others approve or disapprove.stop trying to fit in when i obviously don't.
stop.just stop.
i just want everything to stop.
time to stop.stop thinking.stop pretending.pretending i dont care when i see the gang of friends, knowing i will never be a real part of it.pretending i'm perfecty fine with people just leaving me alone.pretending i don't feel left out of the loop.
stop.please.stop.
hah!! finally found the pic!!! this is DAVID.in the pic, he was like 'aaaahhh!! quick!! so cold so cold!!!' after they 'finished' he was jumping everywhere cuz of the cold. xD
'dont take me!' *shy*
Whew.just came back from camp on sunday...
Ps Jason Goh was awesome.his preaching really touched many people..
first day, went up Frasers Hill in the church van with joyce and all the PA things and instruments.lols..reached there about 12 something.checked in and carried our luggage to the apartment me, joyce, lydia, her sis, ps soocheng and yu lian shared..haha.it was the last block of the row on the highest floor (4th)! we were panting like crazy by the time we got up there! lols...
after lunch, we had like, 4 hours of free time before dinner cuz no games.just lepak-ed and watch the worship practice for the night session.lol..the boys spent most of their time playing futsal as expected..dinner was ok...not exactly my taste, but not bad.
the 1st session was good.actually all the sessions were great.mucho excelente! xD
at night, me n joyce talked for hours in the room before sleeping.haha..lotsa things to talk about mar...hahaha..the stupid mosquitos kept me awake so long that night!! also cuz i dunno why super scared.slept at 3am.then wake up at 3.45am thinking i got thru the whole night.so angry when i looked at the phone and see big big numbers 03:45 there! argh!
summor keep hearing footsteps at the balcony outside...so super scared..so go and sms rueben.haha..who knew,he also nvr sleep yet.lols...finally at 430am, i fell asleep.that guy ar....630am only sleep.. =.= amazing how a person can sleep so 'late'.lols...
the next day woke up, go for morning devotion, then breakfast.also okok.just eat vry little though.lol..later 2nd session, like i said.awesome.
and then once again, after lunch super alot of free time cuz again the games coordinator (david) still hasnt arrived..again watch the worship practice.then crys and lyd go hiking..while me n joyce n laiyee just lepak around and hang out at the dining area with tim.suddenly, hiking people come back dy! johnston came and sit with us but crys and lyd dunno go where liao.
then tim got bored or hungry or something cuz he took johnston, me, joyce and laiyee downhill to buy some AWESOME goreng pisang and fried sweet potato and lekor.we went and eat the food at the tennis court while watching the guys playing futsal.yes, again.the lekor with the sauce was ssoooo AWESOME!!! and the goreng pisang!!! haha.the sweet potato not as good cuz vry hard.tim say like eating cardboard. xD but still good la.hahahaa...
later went back to wash up, have dinner, 3rd session, worship practice again (this time i was IN the worship practice.haha).
then had an 'illegal youth gathering'. xD jhon and tim told all their funny stories about their missions trip and past camps..so so so super funny lar they all....apparently, they have many stories about rueben.hahaha...sooo miss it........
nighttime, talk with joyce in the room again and sleeeep......
what i'm really trying to get to here is the 3rd day.so bear with me awhile ok..lols.
david covered in flour xD
emo me =x
joyce trying not to laugh.haha..
guess who are these?? tell me if u can guess.haha....
WHAT MASK DO YOU WEAR quiz
Your Result: Pain
Your mask is pain. For some reason or another you just can't seem to find a positive outlook on life. You get angry when people try to relate with how you feel, because you're convinced they won't understand. Deep down you know there should be a million reasons for people to want to get to know you, but you often find yourself closing yourself off from those around you. You have your select friends, but can't help but want something more. You find opening up difficult, but you do find your ways to let things out. You have your good days, but even through the good times, you feel like there is always going to be those feelings that don't sit right.
i cant help reading this again and again and again...its like this 'thing' got me spot on,BULLSEYE u know!!! and its just...ugh!!!!! i'm just so angry at it!!!!
how can this THING be so right... .><.
haih.i dont know whats wrong with myself.its crazy.sigh. ..><..
SAGITTARIUS (The Promiscuous One)
Spontaneous. High appeal. Rare to find. Great when found. Loves being in long relationships. So much love to give. Not one to mess with. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly,fun and sweet (not always). Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! Not the kind of person you wanna mess with, you might end up crying.
got from email de...haha..not all true though.only the purple ones are true. xD
ok..soo..today went with crystal and joyce to sunway pyramid at like,1130.went to buy tickets first.see the whole place not alot of people, suddenly go cinema the line got so many people. =.= buy ady,go eat at A&W.i only ate 1 curly fries and nestea PEACH. (crys ask me add de.hahaha.) lols...aft that super hungry..
1230,went in to watch the movie ANGELS AND DEMONS.good thing got large popcorn and coke (share la) or else might starve liao! hahas.movie quite interesting..but the whole time i was freezing like crazy.thought gonna faint.lol.did u know i fainted once before cuz too cold in the cinema? >< lols.....
anyways, later went play in the games place.dunno wat place its called.the 1 that's super noisy n u have to buy tokens to play de.u know? hahas.fun! x]
aft that, jus walk around a while then see a guy ice skating..sooooo admire him la xD his skating i mean..waaaaaahhh.... O.O the skating ring only him 1 person.so many people watching him..pei fu pei fu *bows* haha....
watch till finish liao, just walk around everywhere til like 5 something.then went home ler.
k la.gtg gtg.crys waiting for me to finish writing.haha..bye~~
Your Result: Pain
Your mask is pain. For some reason or another you just can't seem to find a positive outlook on life. You get angry when people try to relate with how you feel, because you're convinced they won't understand. Deep down you know there should be a million reasons for people to want to get to know you, but you often find yourself closing yourself off from those around you. You have your select friends, but can't help but want something more. You find opening up difficult, but you do find your ways to let things out. You have your good days, but even through the good times, you feel like there is always going to be those feelings that don't sit right.
all too true.wish it wasnt.but i cant change reality
I'm good at not caring.Pretending to not care at least.It's easy to put on my earphones and get lost in the song, pretending i'm not caring about everything that's happening around me.But you can never fully ignore the things that are going on around you.
Sometimes, i can control my mind until i really don't care.About anything and everything.But well, i'm not heartless.Controlling your heart isn't as easy as controlling your mind.How you feel is 10 times harder to change than how you think.
I wish i was heartless.Then i wouldn't get hurt by people.I wouldn't hate.I know that means i wouln't love either.But i don't want to hate.Even if it means i cant love too.
just a short post to say....
EXAMS ARE OVER~~~!!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!! SO HAPPIE!!!!!! HOLS ARE COMING!!!!!!!!!! SO HAPPIE!!!!!! CHURCH CAMP!!!!!!!!!! EVEN MORE HAPPIIIEEEE!!!!!!!!! WEEEEE~~~~~~!!!!!!! ^^
HAPPIE PARENTS DAY DADDY N MUMMY~~~~!!!! ^^v
welp..today went to church at 930 instead of the usual 10 to practice for parents day presentation....wore my dance dress there cuz supposed to dance with crys at service time...
she doesnt have the dress so had to borrow frm ash..who said she'd give it to her aunt to bring cuzs he's not going..but then there was some kind of mix up and she forgot to give it to her aunt..so we had to cancel the dancing... >< i was super disappointed and angry and emo cuz i took like 4 hours to make the steps!!! argh!
so then...we were just standing there getting ready to sing when suddenly, jes just came up to us and said 'button ur shirt and dance like this'.lol.dun get it wrong..i was wearing 2 layers so she ask me to button outside de.lol..we were so surprised!!!
so we quickly went up and dance like that! xD but good thing was,me n crys were both wearing long black pants.and our top was both white too! haha...of course we felt sorta awkward.but it was a good awkward. X]
later, the kids had 2 presentations...tambourine dancing and dancing-and-singing..then the youth (including me) presented 2 songs..1 chinese, and 1 english 1 that 'the youth' (i think jhon and david..) composed...
after that, we gave our handmade rocks (nonono..not we make the rocks..we jus painted them n stick a house on top.haha) to our parents...i gave 1 to my mum, and the other 1 extra that i made to aunty peggy.. ^^
'kemudian' xD, just the normal sermon lor..quite good...then altar call, then end service.....
went to this coffeshop for lunch where we met jienyue's family...so just eat together..
now i'm back home n have to go bathe my doggie! bye~~
am i bad the way i am?
i know i have flaws...but who doesnt?
i know i mess up.i know i mess up alot.but is that a good reason to hate me?
i know i'm very straightforward about my feelings..but is that not a good thing?
i know i'm not rich..but is that really such a big deal?
i know i'm not the most lovable person a friend can be..but i try dont i?
dont i....
i'm going to church camp!!!!!! wooo~~~!!!
cant believe i'm going!!! all thanks to pssc who let me register late! thanks! and my parents who finally allowed me to go! thankssss!! ^^
woohhooo!!
so super sad right now...
parents dont let me go to church camp...so sad....sob...
i'm so worried about my future i just dont know what to do....
everything's wrong..just wrong.
feel like dying...
God help.......please...... .><.
Happie belated mother's day mommy~~!!!!! ^^
Saturday family went to celebrate mother's day with aunt & family....was good...jus eat rice and dishes..expensive leh! >< haha..anyways, as usual, i ate 2 and a half plates of rice and 5 glasses of tea. 0.0 i know i know.i dont look like i can.but i did! xD after that so full til cant walk! xDD
then went to see kai ma's newborn baby at other aunt's house (which is this aunt's neighbor.haha.) ate cheesecake!! mmm....so super nice....other other aunt make de. xD then my aunt (again another 1. xD) said she's gonna give me the recipe! cuz my mom duwan make.so she ask me to make.haha.
kai ma couldnt finish her cheesecake so i quickly grabbed it! but in the end also got share with cousins la.lols.cant eat alot extra when my cousins are around.ahaha...
btw, if u got confused, its 4 aunts all together. xDD
stayed till about 12am..then went home lor.sunday couldnt wake up cuz slept so late.. =P hahas.but still got go church lar... =]
kays.that's all for now.see u guys around!
When you drop a glass or plate to the ground, it makes a loud crashing sound..When a window shatters, a picture falls from the shelf, or a book drops from your hand, it all makes a noise.
But as for your heart, when it breaks, its completely silent.
You would think as it is so important, it would make the loudest noise in the whole world, or even have some sort of eardrum-bursting sound like the beating of a gong or the ringing of a big bell.
But it is silent, and you almost wish there was a sound to distract you from the pain.
If there is really a noise, it's eternal.It screams..and no one can hear it but you.It screams so loud your ears sting and your head aches.It thrashes around like a great white shark getting caught in the sea.It roars like a mother bear who just lost her cub.
That is what it looks like and that is what it sounds like.A thrashing, panicking, trapped great big beast, roaring like a prisoner to its own emotions.
But that's the thing about love.No one is untouchable.It's as wild as that.But when it actually breaks, its totally silent.
Now i know.It is time to stop walking with my head in the clouds.Hoping hopes that don't happen; dreaming dreams that don't come true.Instead, keep my head on the harder soil of ground level i should always have been rooted to.
There are no happily ever afters.There is no such thing as love at first sight.
life is like the sky.
sometimes its rainy,
sometimes its sunny.
in the morning its bright,
but at night its dark.
just remember..
the rainbow always appears after the storm..
we're fighting..and will always be fighting.
fighting to live right,
fighting to live well,
fighting to live.
stopping the tears that threaten to fall.
forcing away thoughts that threaten to drown us.
holding back memories that threaten to hurt us.
fighting.
it doesnt matter if we lose the battle.
it matters that we fight our best.
某年某月的某一天..
你和我在那里
傻笑的认识了.
从那天起,
你就变成我的开心果..
每当我开心时,
你都会在那儿.
和我分享..
让我更加的快乐..
每当我伤心哭泣时,
你都会在那儿.
让我在你肩膀哭..
帮我抹眼泪..
每当我生气时,
你都会在那儿.
当我的枕头..
给我打到满手黑青..
每当我寂寞时,
你都会在这里.
陪伴我..
和我玩乐..
遇见了你,
我的天空便得更亮丽..
~~
当我们要分开时...
我真是多么的伤心...
可是你告诉我
‘我会永远在你心里
你会永远在我心里
不要哭啊.
我们会再相见的..’
我是完完全全的相信他的话.
那些时刻..
会永远留在我心里头...
永远不会消失.
~~
但是..
我还在等呢.
等到我们下次相见...
希望..
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haih.when is this gonna end....still sick..but dun worry,i'm not here to blog abt my sickly-ness..
yesterday went to ioi and parents bought me and bro each a new guitar!! with the stand and strap and bag and everything!! yays!!!! ^^v and the guy selling even gave me his own guitar pick..he said its lucky.ahaha....woo! soo happiee!! wheee~~
this morning went to MPH warehouse fair in pj...ya,i know i'm supposed to go to chrch..but wat to do? parents tired mar....bought 2 books by bestselling author Cecelia Ahern (remember Ps I Love You? heh.) If You Could See Me Now and Where Rainbows End..jus started reading if you could see me now..
erm....guess that's all...see ya next time! ciaoz!
haih.ytd was headache sorethroat and low fever.today headache, sorethroat,cough, flu and high fever.sigh....wats happening to me.... >< scared...
headache...omg.feel like whole head gonna burst..aaaaaah... *holding head with both hands*
cant speak...got very bad sorethroat also...pain until even the teeth pain leh..ooowwww...........cant even eat n swallow properly without feeling like i'm swallowing a rock..
fever too..
sob............ .><.
look at my house, i think of my family.
see best friends, i think of anna.
-cuz we are! ^^
see a smile, i think of crystal.
-cuz she's always smiling =]
see a teddy bear, i think of joyce.
-cuz she's just like one.haha.
see penguins, i think of laiyee.
-cuz she loves them..
see a tanning salon, i think of lydia.
-cuz she's soo tanned....
see a cat, i think of kat vee.
-cuz of her name lor! lols..
see tall and thin, i think of debbie.
-cuz she's tall n thin la..
see my tambourine, i think of jessie.
-cuz she teach de ma..heh
see a pic of Beethoven, i think of xin wei.
-cuz she's good at playing the piano...oo..lol..
see my water bottle, i think of Johnny.
-cuz he give me wan lo..haha
see twins, i think of rueben looi.
-cuz..hard to explain....just cuz la.haha..
see a monkey, i think of Johnston.
-everyone knows why..ahaha.
see guitars, i think of reuben pak.
-cuz he's my guitar teacher la.lol
see my guitar, i think of my cous bro.
-cuz he give me wan..heehee
see a pro guitarist, i think of kevin.
-cuz he's pro guitarist lar..haha.
hear 'apologize' by one republic, i think of eugene.
-cuz he sent the song to me last time.hehe
see drums, i think of david, jonathan and jien yue.
-cuz they play in the church.haha.
see basketball, i think of jay1.
-cuz i remember he says he plays with his friends.lols..
see a group of teens hanging out, i think of my church youth.
-cuz we're a group of teens! go gts!! ^^
see/hear my christian cd songs, i think of stan.
-cuz he gave me the cd.. ^^
see someone emo, i think of my 'old' self.
see stars in the sky, i think of how beautiful the world can be... =]
好想回去以前的我.
好想把心里的伤都消除掉.
好想你别对我那么冷漠.
好想再活过新的生活.
好想我们的友情继续到永远.
好想看到你的微笑.
好想把你的信都delete掉.
好想忘了之前的事.
好想...
再重新开始.
thanks....
for helping me get over you.
ya.
you made me get over you!
you know what you did...!
or maybe you dont.
either way,you're the one who made it dawn on me what a jerk you are.
sorry..but i cant lie.
anyway, THANK YOU.SO MUCH.
p.s. u probly dont even know i'm talking about you! xD @.@ lol.
*bzzzbzzz* *bzzzbzzz*
Caller ID : Aaron
*bzzzbzzz*
me :
hey! watsup?
...hello??
...HELLO!!
him :
she broke my heart.i'll never smile again..
me :
what are you talking about?
him :
remember the girl i always talk about? the super cute,super cool,girl good friend of mine?
me :
oh...
him :
ya.that one...
me :
why are you talking to me about me? xD
him :
swt! i am not talking about you!!
me :
then who is it???
him :
cindy.remember??
me :
oh...the girl you've had a crush on since i dont know when..
him :
i do not have a crush on her!!!
...
sorry.its like an auto reaction when someone says i have a crush on someone.
ya.i have a crush on her.
...
me :
well?? what about her???!!!!
him :
...
you know what? forget it.i'm hanging up now.
me :
no no no dont!! i just dont get what you're saying!
him :
fine..
she has a boyfriend.
me :
uhh..........so?
him :
you arent listening!! i like her! she has a boyfriend! i'm heartbroken!! do i have to spell it out for you???!!
me :
well i'm sure it would've been easier if you did in the first place..
him :
ok thats it.you are obviously not interested.
i'll go talk to someone who at least pretends to care!!
me :
no i'm sorry i'm sorry! dont hang up!! pleeeeaase....
i'll be so attentive you wouldnt even know its me!!
him :
sigh..fine..
...
well?? whats your opinion?
me :
about what?
him :
argh!!!!! i can burst an artery talking to you!!!!! goodbye!
me :
dont go!! please please please...i'm sorry.....i'll listen! i promise!
him :
long sigh...ok.last chance.
cindy has a boyfriend.i'm heartbroken..i need comforting.
me :
well,think about it this way.
she's way too short for you.when u wanna hug or kiss her,you'll have to bend down so low your back will ache! xD
him :
haha.its not funny.be serious!!
me :
okok, you killjoy.there are plenty of girls in this world.
him :
plenty of girls??!
me :
yea.i'm sure she's not that good....
him :
not THAT GOOD???!!
me :
yeah! there're lots of better girls out there!
him :
BETTER GIRLS?????!!!!!
me :
YES!! can you stop replying with a question??! its annoying!
him :
annoying????!
me :
its my turn to hang up now.
him :
sorry sorry..i got abit overexcited...
but really.better than her???
sweet,kind,pretty,smart, AND has a SENSE OF HUMOR!
BETTER THAN THAT???!
me :
okay okay..dont get worked up.
how bout we talk this over ice cream? my treat.
him :
nah.i'm so not in the mood for it.
me :
a cup of..something?
him :
i think i prefer talking just as i am now.
me :
well,thats fine with me.
you dont have to change if you dont want to.
unless you're in your underwear.then you have to put some clothes on first.
and if your breath stinks,you have to brush your teeth and take some breathmints first.
him :
i dont mean my clothes or my oral hygiene!!! i mean i prefer talking through the phone!!
me :
oh.ok then.you leave me no choice.
I DARE YOU TO GO FOR ICE CREAM OR SOMETHING WITH ME.
him :
well..........ok.if its your treat.
me :
nope.now its your treat.
him:
but you just said...
me :
that was before i had to dare you to do it! =P
him :
...fine. >(
*TO BE CONTINUED* XD
I was made the wrong way..
Won't you do me the right way?
Where you gonna be tonight?
'cause i won't stay too long..
Maybe you're the light for me.
When you talk to me it strikes me.
Won't somebody help me?
'cause i don't feel too strong..
Was it something that i said?
Was it something that i did?
Or the combination of both that did me end?
You know i'm hoping you sing along,
Though it's not your favorite song..
Don't wanna be there when there's nothing left to say...
You know that some of us spin again..
When you do, you need a friend.
Don't wanna be there when there's nothing left for me..
And i hate the thought of finally being erased..
Baby that's the best of me.
Everything's behind you.
But the hope still stands beside you.
Living in every moment..
Have i wasted all your time?
Was it something that i said?
Was it something that i did?
Or the combination of both that did me end?
You know i'm hoping you sing along,
Though it's not your favorite song..
Don't wanna be there when there's nothing left to say...
You know that some of us spin again..
When you do, you need a friend.
Don't wanna be there when there's nothing left for me...
And i hate the thought of finally being erased..
Baby that's the best of me.
You know i'm hoping you sing along..
Though it's not your favorite song...
Don't wanna be there when there's nothing left to say..
You know that some of us spin again.
When you do, you need a friend..
Don't wanna be there when there's nothing left for me..
And i hate the thought of finally being erased...
Baby that's the best of me.
no.not for him.not anymore.for myself.
CANT BELIEVE IT!!!!!!! I AM SOOOO OVER YOU!!!!!!!!!! I MEAN IT!!!!WOOOOOOOOOOOOOT~~~~!!!!! XDD YEAH!!!!!!!
people say, 'If you love someone, you'd be willing to let him/her go..no matter how much it hurts you...as long as it makes him/her happy..'
so..i'm gonna do it.for you.
so pain my feet......just came back frm worship practice..couldnt remember the dance steps..do til so kelam kabut.... >< haihs.hope we do better tmr...
*my feet hurt like crazy..even more than words can say...my feet hurt like crazy..since 530 today...* xD
i'm gonna reach for the sky and never look down!!
but have to add alot of oil first!
