baroooomm.....ZAP!

wake up.

rain..........................stop.
rain rain rain storm!....................stop.

zzz.sleepy time.

rain rain rain rain.............................


these few days' weather really suits my mood.gloomy...sighss..
wish you were here...

live life

life.appreciate it while you have it.you never know when you'll lose it.seriously.you never know.. ><

of course some people can say 'who cares? if i die, i'll just go to heaven! have the good 'life'!'
but still, if God wanted us to live just to die, he wouldn't have let us live in the first place.

so guys,

LIVE OUT LOUD! LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST! DO WHAT YOU HAVE NEVER DID BEFORE, BEFORE YOU CANT DO IT ANYMORE! jia you!!

smile

Smiling is infectious.anyone can catch it like a flu.

when someone smiled at her today, she started smiling too.

she walked around the corner and a guy saw her grin.

when he smiled, she realized she passed it to him.

she thought about her smile and realized its worth.

a single smile, just like hers, could travel around the world.

so if you feel a smile coming, dont stop it.

smile and get the world infected! =]

ps. i'm smiling even though i feel like crying.

you say it best...

sighs...cant stop sighing..

i dont think anyone in this world can 'speak right to my heart'.. =/

isnt it wierd..? how when this guy friend likes you, you just wanna be friends and you reject him.
you 2 still talk alot.still really good friends.he still likes you though.your relationship becomes closer than when you rejected him.

then all of a sudden, he goes 'away' and you 2 dont talk much anymore.he meets this girl.he totally falls for her and starts ignoring you (guys are like that.most anyway).

and even though you know you just like him as a good friend, you still feel hurt.

wierd huh..

sobs....

today vry emo....very very very very E-M-O.sigh...feel like crying.

thank God i have such great friend(s) to cheer/try to cheer me up....

thanks guy(s)..i'm sure you know who you are... =]

even if i dont feel ALOT better, thanks.a real lot.. .><.

youth cell

well, ytd went to youth cell...there were exactly 10 people who attended.cuz most of them were in rangers camp.

worship time, there were only 7 of us.i felt really....comfortable actually.usually, when there are like 20+ people, i tend to be really shy to..u know,close my eyes, or lift up my hands, or just be touched by Him...

but this time, i felt very at ease.and the songs were all so...umm...well, i was really touched by those songs a long time ago.it felt nice to just close my eyes, lift up my hands and let Him touch me.maybe even...cry? shh.....lols..

of course, i'm not saying that i like it that so few youth attended.but, i guess, i just cant help it that i feel better when less people are around you know.. =/

what happened..

i cant stop thinking and wondering....what happened to you...why wont you tell me?

whats wrong?? is it something bad? is that why you never come? oh what the heck,is has to be something bad! i dont care what it is.anything that's stopping you from coming is DEFINITELY bad!!!

urgh.getting so hyped up....yikes..cant stop thinking about it!!! ><

sighs.just hope you're okay..God bless!

through it all...You're with me..

Your mercy found me

Upon the broken road

And lifted me beyond my failing.

Into Your glory

My sin and shame dissolved

And now forever Yours I’ll stand.

In love never to end

To call You more than Lord,

Glorious friend.

So I throw my life upon all You are

‘Cause I know You gave it all for me

And when all else fades

My soul will dance with You

Where the love lasts forever. (x2)

And forever I will sing

Lord forever I will sing

Of how You gave Your life away

Just to save me,

Lord You saved me.

With You, where the love lasts forever.

girls are like apples on trees.

The best ones are at the top of the trees.

Boys dont want to climb up to get the good ones because they're afraid of falling and getting hurt.
Instead,they just take the apples that have already fallen down from the tree,which arent half as good,but easy.

So the apples on the top think something is wrong with them.when in reality, they're sweet, nice and amazing.

They just have to wait for the right boy who's brave enough to climb to the top of the tree and pick them.because those are the boys who'll appreciate them most and treat them the best.

good luck gals.jia you o! =]

=]

love, makes life sooooooo much more complicated, so much more hurtful, so much more sad,
and yet,soo much better.

oh the irony.

LIVE YOUR LIFE

life.appreciate it while you have it.you never know when you'll lose it.

of course some people can say 'who cares? if i die, i'll just go to heaven! have the good 'life'!'
but still, if God wanted us to live just to die, he wouldn't have let us live in the first place.

so guys,

LIVE OUT LOUD! LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST! DO WHAT YOU HAVE NEVER DID BEFORE, BEFORE YOU CANT DO IT ANYMORE! GAMBATEH!! ^^

*i say*

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the heart see's things that are invisible for the eye.it speaks a language we dont understand.

~

LOVE is a canvas created by nature and embroidered by imagination.

~

do not forget who you are.just be yourself and you will shine like a star.

~

if you want something you never had, do something you never did.

~

time is like a bird on the wing.is comes and goes as it pleases.

~

gravity isnt responsible for people falling in love!

~

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laugh,and the world laughs with you.cry,and the world laughs even harder.

i have so much to tell you.and now,its perfect.you're right in front of me.
but i cant.i dont know where to begin.

so i ignore you.you ask me why.i ask you what you want me to say.but even you dont know.of course you dont know.you have no idea.not a clue.

i guess it IS my fault.but i may never tell you.after all,why bother? you 2 are perfect for each other.congrats to you both.

look....

the sky, is the most beautiful thing in the world..

look at the stars...they're so small.so far away.but yet, so beautiful.

sitting over here,i cant help but think about you...

..

how are you now?

you dont have to reply.i'm sure you're doing well. =]

i miss you..

too emo?

wont somebody come take me home....

posting in church..lols.

anyways, haihs.i'll bet if i asked my friends to describe me, 1 of the first things they would say is ALWAYS EMO.

now emo cuz nobody teman me here..lyd go back ady n crys didnt come...sighs.what to do..only i am 'soo free'. == lol.story of my life...NOT.

but usually i'm not THAT emo wan lar.at least that's wat i think la.maybe my normal look alrd looks vry emo....hehe.

what to do now..so bored..no msn summore.......... T.T sobs~

haha.ok la.gonna go look for sumthing to do...ciaox guys! oops.AND gals!!

isabel = bella

wonder how my life would be like if i was Twilight's Bella..haha...

use some imagination!! =D i could become a vampire and eat everyone up!! xD

nah..not imaginative enough...hmm..
dont worry.i'll think of something.

but for now,i gtg to cell! omg,i'm late!! bye peeps!!!

my happiness now is indescribable

exams are over.AND now we have a week's holiday.

omg.its unbeliavable.

...

YEEAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYY...........!!!!!!!

whew.out of breath dy.haha.

Enjoy your hols guys! ^^

it is time

where am i? its so dark.is this nightime? trees are surrounding me at all sides.they're black and leafless.where am i??! i'm..lost.how did i get here???!

'help! is anyone here?? help me!! please...!!!'

~

i have to find the way out of here! all i can think of is running.i run and run and run.....
its so dark.its too silent to be a forest.all i can hear are my footsteps.

i dont see anything but the black trees.nothing.its so scary.i start to cry.but i keep running.'dont stop' i tell myself.i struggle through some branches.they scratch me all over.i dont care. 'run.just keep running.get out.' was all i could think.

finally,my legs could stand nomore.out of breath,i fall.

i open my eyes.is this a dream? no.i'm still here.
it should be morning by now.where's the sun? its still as dark as ever.i try to get up, but my legs wont budge.like they're paralyzed.i cant do it.

what's that? a bright light catches my eye.light! there's light! i starts to grow dim.
'no! dont go!!!' i push myself up.my legs wont move. 'get up!!!' i forced them up.they hurt.they feel more painful than anything i've ever felt before.tears start falling from my eyes.

run.run!! i cant.i can barely walk.the light moves.it goes further and further away.i feel the darkness coming over me. 'no,wait.wait for me..' RUN!! i start running.i dont care how much it hurts.i want to get out of here.the light is so far way it looks like a tiny star almost disappearing. i dont stop.'i wont.' i promise myself. 'i wont..'

after what seemed like days and days of endless running, i see the light.its not more than a mile away.i run like i've never ran before.
finally,i'm there.standing right in front of it.before i can say a word, its glows so bright till i cant open my eyes, and then vanishes. 'no!!!! COME BACK!!!!!!' i'm enveloped in darkness again.
its gone..gone.

i kneel down and start crying.i give up..i give up.

suddenly,something nudges my knee.i look up.its a mouse.tiny and harmless.then i notice, i'm not in the jungle anymore..i'm out! I'M OUT!!!

i breathe a sigh of relief...its over.
my energy is totally used up.i lay down and fall asleep.

~

its morning now.a dim light shines in the sky.its not the sun.i'm on a gloomy,cold stretch of bare land.the forest has disappeared.

in front of me lay a huge jungle of rose plants.rose plants that were almost 4 feet tall.the roses were a shade of black-red.big thorns stuck out from all the branches.
i stand there.wide-eyed staring at them,speechless.

'its not over.' no...

i sit down on the cold hard floor.planning to just lie down and die.
then sudddenly, a strong wind blows in.i'm freezing cold.where is this coming from?? i cant open my eyes.it didnt take me long to figure out,its a hurricane.

i have nowhere to go.it was either the wind, or the thorns.
i try to hide in a narrow pathway in the branches.

thorns scratch my whole body.my clothes are torn by them.blood is streaming through my wounds.i noticed the path gets wider as it goes on.even so,the narrow part is very long.i know i would be hurt badly if i go on.

but there is no option now.i pull myself through the branches.pushing away as much as i can with my hands.i yell in pain as the thorns poke into my arms. 'keep going.you're almost there.keep going...'

the path starts getting wider.then,less and less thorns could reach me.finally,i'm walking in the middle of the rose jungle.my wounds hurt like crazy.i tear off a part of my pants and soak it in a puddle of water.i use it to wipe my wounds and bandage my right arm.

the sun is still nowhere to be seen.i just keep walking.glancing around once in a while to see if any horrible creature comes jumping at me.

after some hours,i see the end.the end of the jungle.my energy is failing me and i feel like i'm going to die of exhaution......

but its not over.i'm in more darkness.its just a dark and empty space.i have no place to run.no way to go.i would just be walking on and on into nothing if i continued.

not knowing what to do anymore,i fall to the ground.i sob and sob endlessly.but right then,i remembered.

pray.try to pray.

'God..help me.please..'

~

i wake up to see myself in a field.green trees and flowers surrounding me.
i feel...safe again.

pheww..

*note to self* dont ever get sick on exam week............. T.T

whoo.done with bc,geo,english and science exams...tiring.. -,-zzZ

now left bm,maths,sejarah,and..umm..aiyo, cant remember...
o ya! KH! urgh...my worst subject... =.=

k la k la.gotta go study again..bye.. *faints*

1 down,so much more to go.

yeay!!! passed guitar exam...!!!! woohooo.........!! ^^v
wooooooooooooooo....................!!!!!


now,its time to face something worse...



SCHOOL EXAM.

*TUMTUMTUUUMMM...* (scary music)



xD

wish me luck.. ><

wedding...

Last last last week (i think), me n mom went to her collegue's wedding..
not the dinner type.the real i-do-saying, signature signing type.

Me n my mom were the only chinese there! haha.

The bride's house is huge! but i guess it should be expected, since her father is the PA of the Sultan of Selangor..

'Wow.big house.really big house.' was my first impression.even the security guards laughed at me.. == lol.

this's my mom's boss (first frm left).his wife (3rd frm left) is a Puteri!

that thing that looks like cake looks good, but i bet i would'nt like it.because its made out of veggie.yuck! xP

mom's other collegues.

~the end~

haha...

haha...my friends say my hair in the about me pic looks redish-purplish-brown..wakaka..

anyways,friday went to kutip sampah in the nearby playground with classmates for sivik project..

here are some of the pics..kaka.

lols.took by my friend while i wasnt looking..

her last year's bday

haha....a VERY VERY VERY OVERDUE POST.just posting for fun.. xD